2012 was filled with sorry and joy.
The biggest event, and worst event, was the passing of Miss Maggie Moo. She had been adopted, after being dumped. I nursed her back to health, she had one eye removed, surgeries on the other, and for a while she did well. She learned to play and bat toys around. Every night, she would snuggle to me in bed. Then a tumor in her mouth grew and spread. Eventually she had to be put to sleep while I held her. I have had many cats and loved each of them, but she was a special little being -- she was my soul kitty. And to this day, I don't know how I survived her death.
But they say when one door closes another opens.
And I should mention Clarissa also came into my life. My little tortie tot has been a source of joy and laughter with her wildness, and of great pride when she won some ribbons as a cat show. She's cute and adorable, but like all my cats, she has problems. She was bred as a miniature and so has problems with her digestive system. But she makes me laugh.
In terms of work, mixed blessings. I got rehired, but I also got 6 classes, 3 different subjects, 40+ kids per class, 1/5 of which are either special ed or English language learners. Not easy for any teacher, but insane for a second year teacher. Supposedly this shows how much confidence they have in me, and I'm hoping this is true.
Personally,... well, I'm healthy and that's all I can say. I didn't gain weight but I didn't lose it either. I was cranky most of the year from the pressure of teaching. I have little time to relax or workout when teaching. And when I'm not teaching, I either am bored, or sleep, or play on the internet doing nothing. While I know I did not have much time for things and I know doing nothing sometimes is exactly what I needed, I'm very disappointed in myself. There were things I could have done that would have improved me or my house or my cats' lives, and I didn't do them.
One important discovery came late in the year -- I received 2 very special presents. One was a scrapbook of photos of Maggie, which I have written about. The other is a handmade quilt with the names of all my cats. (I'll write about it at a later date.) Both of these presents were unexpected and have forced me to reconsider some of the things I think about myself -- namely, that I'm unlikable.
So, I have a few hours before 2013 comes and I'm planning on thinking about things and figuring out where I go from here. In the meantime,
Happy New Year!!!